We Started our ride somewhere in the capital of Tamil Nadu. In-between she asked to stop somewhere near “Khadims” a footwear shop. She asked to select footwear for me. I refused that I’m already having a pair. But she said I had plans to get for you. After purchase we came out and had our breakfast. Once q12we done we just started to a shopping mall. Again a surprise was waiting for me there too. She went inside “Max” and asked me to pick a shirt. I felt guilty since I didn’t want my girl to spend for me, since she was living alone without her parent’s aid.
That’s what love is all about, she never expected anything in return. She did with pure love!, An eternal love! I can say this is like
“Eternal! ‘love’ is letting your life in Heaven”
She holded my hands, It was a perfect touch I can say it. I heard some lyrics of a song from Two states, (English version)
“Spellbound this mind speaks only your name”
She was completely in love. Whatever she does there was a hidden thing called love. I noticed her moves, each and every turn resembled her care for me. We were in food court, she was cool, caring, with bliss. Those moments were still giving a chill feel to my heart. I dropped her near the PG. Should I ask her to leave? without even giving her a small gift in remembrance of our first meet. Yeah me too packed a small gift for her but didn’t show it to her. She started walking, I called her she turned, I gave her a gift surprisingly. Its nothing when it compared, but she accepted it whole heartedly. She is satisfied with what I gave thats what my girl is all about. She never expected anything from me. All she needed is a care from her prince.
Back to PG, got refreshed had dinner. We two started home again by Sunday night 7p.m. Everything is turning to be a dream. How crazy I’m? I had slept only 3 hrs in past two days. While returning I stopped in each and every tea shop. I was too tired. I couldn’t drive, still I had 300kms to home. My state of mind a day back was like ‘Romeo In Wonderland’
Now I’m calling myself “Pagal In wonderland”.
Even though I’m restless her gentle touch made me feel fresh. Perfect eye contacts, if you wanted to be happy love a girl that’s all is enough. She will give you wonders. But the thing is whether it lasts long? . Why I’m saying this is, that was the last day I saw her. Upcoming moments will be an annoying part.
I’m sorry I didn’t know what to do. I’m coward, A Swindler, I should reveal those moments, which is prickling my heart for a long time. Things were smooth till my birthday that’s after a month after her meet. Then everything started to turn upside down. I was irritated with myself as well as with the society, More importantly I started thinking whether there is any possibilities that this relationship will end up to a positive note. All the doors were shut, Low earnings, No proper shelter, No I’m not a perfect match to her. So I just started avoiding her. I didn’t reply to her texts, never answered her phone calls. All of a sudden everything was upside down.
Till that I didn’t how break ups would be like. I felt like my heart was pumping pins instead of blood. I had such a pain inside. Oh ! My girl why should I do this. I didn’t even have courage to reveal all those things to her. I’m feeling guilty still for being a coward like that. I even conveyed those things with one of her friends, not to her one on one. I’m sorry for what I did. I’m missing you terribly. I’m sorry for what I did. I’m no more into the world of love.
I can tell you all, please don’t be like me. A coward who had crushed a heart indirectly. I pray to the supreme power so that her upcoming days should be fine. I miss you forever. Don’t worry I’ll never be a barrier anymore. These moments were hardships in a masquiline life.
I’m a Nomad Were she was an Invader
Conquered a few lands but
Now I’m somewhere, ‘coz Nomad
doesn’t have a land to stay and rest.
From there I’m moved on to a long distance in my life. To love someone and to beloved is a wish in everyone’s life. Anyways I had some flourishing moments with her. I’m regretting myself and I love you from the bottom of my heart. May be I had broken her heart into pieces, I’m not going to recollect everything and form it again but I’ll be a scar which will never get erased.
And thanks for joining with me in the journey of love. Upcoming weeks will be interesting since we are on the way to”Himalayas A Land Of Heaven”. Catch you all with the next blog.
A travel that brings you eternity.